Starting from scratch, stepping into a new territory. Doing it so openly, where everyone gets to see, While you’re not even sure what it is that they’re seeing. You start looking at yourself through the eyes of everyone else. Your thoughts take you to all what they’re possibly thinking of. Which you can never really […]

I’m tired of having to remind myself that when people talk to me, they’re mostly talking to themselves through me. Mostly just projecting their insecurities on me. Without even being slightly aware. I’m tired of having to remind myself it’s hardly ever about me. And I’m so tired of having to heal from things I […]

This isn’t the first time I experience something like this, and yet every time it happens, it feels exactly like the very first one. So I had to be somewhere this morning, and right before leaving, I realized I couldn’t find my mask extension hook (hashtag Hijabi struggles) and I was in a hurry. I […]

I keep realizing how every emotion I’m uncomfortable with, or every feeling I hide away from, often irritates me when I sense it in those I deeply care about. I’d know how much discomfort it brings, so a part inside feels the need to protect them from that which I personally try to avoid. And […]

The more I open up, the more I realize I’m not alone. The more I share, the more others relate. The more I’m able to express what’s inside, the more I see it reflected inside others, too. And it makes me wonder, if we all somehow go through the same things and experience almost the […]

I recently heard a TED talk discussing drug addiction, and the speaker said something so powerful that I haven’t been able to stop thinking about. He explained how the opposite of addiction isn’t sobriety; it’s rather human connection. And I couldn’t help but think how this applies to so many aspects of life that don’t […]

I have this muscle in my leg, that holds in all the tension I’m not always able to let out. Every time I’m anxious, every time I’m stressed, every time I experience an emotion I cannot really express, I feel it there. So loudly felt, yet so invisible to everyone else. For the longest time, […]

My life has been somewhat a mess for the past couple of weeks. After I had already spent so much time fixing my sleep, maintaining a morning routine, regulating my social media usage, and having a generally more productive structure for my day, everything suddenly started going downhill at some (unknown) point. I’ve been avoiding […]

I have always been hesitant about publicly sharing ‘achievements,’ because no one gets to see their behind-the-scenes. And I’ve been overthinking this lately; how (what seems to be) my consistency could be demotivating someone else and making them feel they can never do this. The truth is, I’ve had my fair share of “will-never-be-able-to-do-this” days, […]

Conversations. Conversations that completely take your mind off the rest of world for their entire duration. Conversations that make you forget all about the minor inconveniences of the day, as you dig deeper and tune in to the actual roots of your feelings. Conversations that witness tearing up while looking the other person straight in […]