It always confuses me
how everyone resumes
from where they believe
we’ve left off and not
where we actually are
inside my head.
It always confuses me
how random strangers
on the internet
have no clue
I even exist
when I bring them up
in my every conversation
like we’re the best of friends.
It always confuses me
how someone can still
smile back at me
right after the voices
are done convincing me
they’ve totally rolled their eyes
upon reading my last text.
It always confuses me
when they don’t hug back
with the same intensity
after they just
opened up to me
when I closed my eyes
the previous night.
And it will never
stop confusing me
when they ask if my heart
still aches at the thought
of your absence
because in my head
you never really
left.
