Sometimes certain things don’t happen right when our hearts long for them, just because He knows that the joy and contentment they’d bring along when they later come to life – after all the unease, the flow of tears, the pep talk, and the excruciating pain, would be indescribable in comparison to what we believe […]

there are things i do not know how to ask for, and things i do not even know i need. there are things i need but feel like i do not deserve, so i make sure i do not ask entirely. there are thoughts that cloud my vision – ones that i hold onto tightly. […]

There will come a time when you’ll finally make sense of everything you’ve been through that only left you confused earlier. You’ll feel a special kind of contentment deep inside your soul upon realizing you’re living through all what you once prayed for – sometimes even so silently. When you make it there (and you […]

At the end of my crazy days, there’s always this moment on my way back home when everything shushes for a while, despite the headache, despite all the unpleasant feelings that have been triggered, despite everything, when I realize that the day is indeed over and that I’m able to let out a final sigh […]

ولا تحسبن الله غافلا عما يعمل الظالمون إنما يؤخرهم ليوم تشخص فيه الأبصار [Do not think Allah is unaware of what the unjust do; He only respites them to a day when the eyes will fixedly stare in terror.] There isn’t a day that passes when I don’t feel this wrenching pain deep inside my […]

Sometimes I wonder if I could have ever survived through the hardships of this life without believing in a God. Without being able to talk to Him and tell Him how much it all hurts, and how much I just don’t understand. Sometimes I wonder if I would’ve been able to stay sane without remembering […]

“And say good things to people.” Everything about this sentence is extremely beautiful. The fact that on the verse where it’s mentioned, we’re asked to say good things to people *before* we’re asked to pray and give charity. The fact that the sentence structure makes “حُسنا” (good), both a مفعول به and a حال (an […]

I’m sure I’m not the only one whose Facebook timeline has turned into a series of heartbreaking deaths over the last months. I keep wondering if it has always been this way while we just weren’t exposed as much to the news, or if the numbers are particularly increasing these days. But either way, death […]

This might sound weird, but if we really take a moment to think about it, there is something for us to actually LEARN from Satan. Particularly how his evil intentions and acts are continuously referred to as “steps”. Because when he wants to take someone off a certain path, he never does it right away. […]

“Verily, Allah loves those who frequently turn (to Him) with repentance.” My journal entires for the last couple of days have been highlighting how much I’m having a hard time forgiving. Forgiving myself, above all. I’ve been befriending many parts of me lately; parts I’d been having trouble with. I’m getting to understand them better, […]