Category: Inside my head

Who were you?

Whenever I came across this quote, I’d always shrug and think that’s not meant for me. I mean, no one has ever “told me” who I should be. Everything I’ve become is everything I chose, I knew it. But then I was having this conversation with a friend today about an aspect of my personality […]

Fear

Fear. The one universal feeling we barely allow ourselves to simply express. When the truth is, we’re all scared of something, deep down inside – each one of us. There will always be something that we don’t know. Or something we’ll hardly be able to control. Or some idea we’ve falsely been made to believe […]

May you never…

May you never be consistently denied of your right to feel your feelings, that you no longer believe in the validity of whatever crosses your mind. May you never learn to judge what you know nothing about, that you start shaming your younger selves for not knowing what you’re fortunate to have realized as an […]

If I could go back in time…

If I could go back in time, I would give my younger self the squishiest hug she could possibly ever get, and allow her to cry out all the pain she believed is undeserving of her tears. If I could go back in time, I would take her behind the scenes, so she could see […]

Questions

Who are you beyond all the shields you’ve so carefully placed between yourself and the world, that it’s become too hard to recognize you without even one of them? What are you like without your constant need to secure all that you think you should very cautiously continue protecting? Are you able to identify exactly […]

Empathy and pain

Every genuinely empathetic person I come across who’s so connected to their feelings and constantly allows themself to acknowledge their validity and intensity, always has a story of pain without which they would have never been the same person. And I always find that incredibly beautiful yet immensely disturbing.

Healing through hearing

There’s always something super healing about being heard by someone who knows how to genuinely listen. Without reacting, without trying to give the answers they think you’d want to hear, without exerting too much effort to empathize with how you feel; it just comes naturally. There’s something healing about allowing the rawest thoughts to finally […]

Restarting Anxiety

The anxiety of re-starting is so real. Restarting something you’ve hit the pause button on for too long. It’s so much harder than new beginnings. Because starting something hard for the first time comes with the anxiety of the unknown. You’re not really sure what to expect. You’re not sure if you’ll be up to […]

Quality doesn’t always precede quantity

I love the beginning of new months. I love the fresh vibes that the sight of my calendar always brings. I love looking back and reflecting on where I was 30 days ago. This month, I want to take the time to appreciate that after 30 days, I’m coming out with 22 posts, 4 patreon […]

A terrible dream

I fell asleep on my couch today and had a terrible, terrible dream of someone pointing a gun at me, trying to take my life. I woke up with a terrified heart, and a troubled mind that’s still unable to grasp how this is someone else’s reality. How they can’t just shake it off once […]