If you’re here since last year, you might remember that today’s date is quite disturbing to me. February 16, 2020 is the day I got into the car accident that I’ve been constantly bringing up almost all year long. Sometimes I wonder if it was really that traumatizing, or if it just happened during a […]

  I wrote this on the morning of the accident, before it all happened. Not sure if it meant anything. As I was leaving to work this morning, I realized I had no idea where my phone was. My battery was also dead, so I had no option other than to find it myself. I […]

  The one thing that constantly bugs you, is the one thing that has something important to say. The one bad memory that you keep trying to forget, only keeps resurfacing to the top of your head because it’s trying to get you to notice it. To stop you from looking away and pretending it […]

  One of the very first things you‘re always told when something bad happens is, it must be out of ‘حسد.’ Which means envy, jealousy or begrudge. It’s mentioned in the Qur’an. It’s big. And it scares people. I personally believe in حسد too, but let me tell you, this is one of the worst […]

  It’s so easy to be grateful when everything‘s okay. When it’s all sunshine and butterflies. When we’re content with what we have and what happens around. Two weeks before the accident, I started a gratitude challenge on my Instagram Stories, where I decided to mention one thing I’m grateful for every day. It used […]

  One of my favorite things that happened after the accident, and that I want to document and continue remembering, is what I like to call: a night of connection. Around a week after, I decided to join a group of my friends on an outing, where we usually just chill and talk about life […]

  You’ve felt this pain before. You’ve done all you could to distract yourself from how much it hurt. And it worked. For a little while. Until you realized your distraction was starting to hurt even worse. So you instantly looked for another one. And it also worked, until it no longer could. It led […]

  You know ‘Joy’ from Inside Out? You know how so all-over-the-place she’s been throughout the movie, trying not to let other emotions take control? How she was convinced she‘s all what Riley needs? I have my own Joy, with slight variations. I have this part of me, that believes in reasons way too much. […]

  I don’t think I would‘ve survived so much of what’s happening without the people I‘m blessed to be surrounded with. Those who somehow manage to know just the right amount of support to offer, while I myself still don’t know what is it that I need. Those who’re always around to listen, and yet […]

  It’s been two weeks since the day of the accident, and I keep realizing how every day that followed has felt quite different. When something really bad happens, you’d think you’d forever continue walking around with the pain of it, and nothing would ever feel the same after. It’s true, so much does change. […]